Embracing Freedom

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Sherlock Holmes?

This happened a few months ago, when I was still head over heels over someone we'll hide under the name...errr..Lets just call him Guitar Man.

He's got this killer pair of eyes you could just drown in. He's a painter, and is a part of Emanila Poets. He loves poetry and we both love the Beatles. I sort of almost fell for him. Good thing my inner detective was put to use. It all started when I finally had him on my friends list sa friendster, tapos we would sometimes see each other. Pero mga 3 times lang yun. Illegal pa ang dates sa kin hehe. Anyways, he said he liked me, and during that time may gusto na rin ako sa kanya.

So, since friend ko na sya both online and in real life, I would visit his page sometimes, tas nung active pa yung Sun sim ko, we would call each other in the late time of evening. One time when I saw his friendster, may nakita akong super sweet na testimonial...followed by another...then another...all from different girls,and he would testi back(sorry for that term hehe). I sort of "monitored" this testi thing, hanggang sa umabot na sa point na magka-girlfriend sya,and guess what,during that time na nagcocourt siya with this Girl,eh may boyfriend pa sya. Parang nangiinterfere ang dating diba? In the end, for a SHORT period of time,naging sila.Everytime I'd ask him about that Girl,he would always deny. Hmf.I gave him the silent treatment. Now they've broken up,the girl was back with the old boyfriend again. And now, sinusuyo ako ni Guitar Man. Naman.

Its a fact that he's sweet with girls so others mistake it as something else. Mine was different. He told me to wait.. I did. Pero look what happened. Forgotten promise eh? I don't know if I should even trust him anymore.

Hay. I gotta eat some pizza. Boys. pff.

trisha flew at 4:04 AM

Monday, October 23, 2006

Moving,moving.

Now why did I decide to change my effin' URL? Wala lang. De, kasi, I just wanted something new. That's all. That is really really it.Its more me. I've also decided to make neater layouts,sans the loud graphics or mega-bold colors. Clean,eh? So yeah. The blog will still feature the real me, only with a different URL,and sense of layouting. *smiles*

trisha flew at 9:31 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Paranoia in Darkness

I think I'm being slightly paranoid. Wonder why? Here's the lowdown.

1.I'm a huge fan of Harry Potter.I was on the verge of being an addict,but thankfully didn't happen. *Harry Potter was considered an occult series and has factors pointing to paganism,etc.etc.*

2.I like vampires. I think vampires in books and in movies are so finesse(plus they've got cool outfits,great black hair and kick-ass kung-fu abilities.)* Vampires are always in connection with evil.I think its a fact since they're creatures of the night...and I don't think angels are fanged blood-thirsty creature)

You see? I grew up attending church every Sunday. I'm not a goth fan or something...pero yung ibang interest ko,they're a bit on the "evil" side. Kahit sabihin pa na "it depends on how you see it" thing,its like denying the nature of those interests..like HP,kahit its a fictional work,and magic appeals even to kids, you can't change the fact na wizardry is against God. Its even stated in the bible that God hates sorcery. And in vampires, they're obviously creatures of evil,seriously that's what they are.Pero lister ako ng Chicosci and we're called vampires haha at like i said,I am fascinated by those creatures.

So tell me,is there something wrong? Or am I just being paranoid?

trisha flew at 1:26 AM

Friday, October 20, 2006

Yeah.

So the layout you see here will be my temporary layout, there's something wrong with my Photoshop, it keeps hanging.
The exams are through. Field trip namin bukas. Woohoo. Ang sarap ng feeling.

Anyway,

I want to post "something"...as in yung may laman talaga...kaso I don't know what to say. Hmm,I watched the Da Vinci Code again on our PC.(IF YOU'D LIKE,I COULD SEND YOU AN ADOBE-PDF FILE REGARDING THIS, and A POWERPOINT PRESENTATION SENT BY OUR PASTOR.I COULD MAIL IT TO YOU.ITS REALLY HELPFUL) I remembered everything I've been taught since I was a kid considering I grew up in a Christian family.There's really the advantage when you read the Truth in the Bible before reading a work of fiction that had excessive usage of God's name in vain.I hope you know what I mean.I guess the vanity there is using Jesus as the catch to story for the sake of a good novel who backed up the controversies from another book called Holy Blood,Holy Grail.(I think that was the title of the Code's predecessor).

Hindi ko maalis sa system ko to. I mean,I'm not saying I'm right, pero its the truth I've come to grow up with...and that is Jesus is the Son of God,the Son of Man, who died for our sins as a payment for them.No one has the right to question His divinity. Who are we with limited knowledge and borrowed resources to doubt all this?

Well, for those who still have doubts,di pa namamatay ang Da Vinci issue. Its just taking a break. If the prequel had a sequel, no doubt this could be a trilogy. Or even a 12 or 15-series volume...who knows.*The exams may be over, but I need my rest lol.Glad to be back again.*

trisha flew at 5:11 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

be back.

BE BACK IN ABOUT A WEEK OR SO. PERIODICALS ARE UP NEXT WEEK. I'm FACING SO MANY DEADLINES AND MY SCHED's TIGHT JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE'S. AND YES I'M GOING POOR FROM THOSE FRIGGIN' PROJECTS, AND I'M NEARLY NEUROTICALLY DEAD.

I'LL VISIT YOU GUYS ASAP. *hugshugshugs*!

-trish

trisha flew at 4:26 AM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

October the 5th

FIXING LOST TIES

October the 5th when she watched the sunset, emptying herself of all emotions. Silence. Tranquility. This has been one heck of a dreadful week of extreme decision making. It is then she realized that its not easy to become a leader. October the 5th when she decided she accepts the challenge.

Ok enough drama.I'm part of the CO thing in our school, and there comes a time when the class marcher (the person the commandant will refer to render his general orders, and really the one responsible for any "atraso" from the CO.hey, who says we live in a fair world?). Three days ago (I think), it was my turn...I didn't know what was on my head when I raised my hand to volunteer as class marcher. Duh!
And then we had a problem...I won't reveal what it was,but it includes our diversion *before*.I had one of the greatest mental squeeze and frustration EVER. But then, I'm an avid believer of those "everything happens for a reason" thing, and as a Christian, I see it as a plan of God's plan...yes even in simple matters like the excruciating and completely pointless(academically speaking) CO training.

I actually learned to apply some stuff I gained from the oodles of leadership trainings I've had. Never though I'd actually use it in times like these. Poor me. Life sucked to me for 2 days having the officers mad at us (oops!spilled something! haha). kAbLaG! This very moment its like I've got loads to say but I can't quite string them out together.Its just that I thought I won't get through this thing, but the officers advised me to stand my ground and do whatever it takes to get my unit united! {talk about redundancy.)And I guess that's what I tried and it worked.My fellow CO's are willing to comply with the orders now more than ever...I'm just so proud of them...

Anyways that was what happened to me the past days without update. NOTE TO SELF: PRAYER IS MORE POWERFUL THAN WE THINK.

trisha flew at 7:39 AM

Monday, October 02, 2006

Psycho.

Arriving home an hour later than usual, here I am typing this. My gray matter just told me something that made me shift my already-thought-about post. My brain is too selfish, because its about...err.."it"

I know its a metaphor to say that you could love a person "with all your heart" when in fact your brain controls your emotions, responses, and other thoughts. I'm just wondering how the heart ended up the symbol of love. Its obvious that its been around since,forever! But whoever said that its the heart that loves owes me an explanation. Heyheyhey.

The mind is so fascinating.Perplexing, I must say but nonetheless fascinating. My curiosity for human behavior and communication is slowly leading me to study psychology, but my mom doesn't approve. Well, I've considered the fact that it is a quota course and I've been aspiring for UP.Mahirap nang hindi makapasok. Dang, here I am with my college thing. If I'm stressing while I'm still a junior, what more when I reach senior year? Raaaar.

There's so much to know 'out there' and even within me.I still wonder why I have this impulsive responses to my environment. It just tells me that my mind is more complex than I think, and the truth that most of us only use about 10% of our brains makes me want to explore deeper into what my mind can see that I don't.I just wish I could study psychology and be in a kick-ass band. Bleh.

This post will be short. My head hurts. Haha.
Mom, are you reading this?

trisha flew at 6:55 AM

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